We were in vacation in Florida and the way my cycle was timed, we would have missed the second monitoring appointment by two days. I had done three cycles of pills, shots, multiple daily morning appointments and tracking of cycles. They monitor you and time every step and we were leaving for Florida before the second monitoring step. The third cycle was very hard on me because I had a good feeling and it did not work, so I was upset we were going to be missing one.

On August 8th, I had not gotten my period yet and bought a pregnancy test, that would allow me to get a prescription for provera, which would make me have a period and allow us to do another cycle with treatment. I did the thing August 9th before work and by the time I put the stick down, it was positive.

I was in absolute shock and took a few seconds of staring at it before it triggering in my brain. We hadn’t done a cycle and yet, here it was. After years, I couldn’t believe it. I decided to wait to tell Chris, because I didn’t want to tell him and have it not be true. I scheduled an appointment with my fertility doctor the next day and a blood test confirmed I was “very pregnant”, according to my HCG levels.

I told Chris when I got home on the 10th and I think he was dumbfounded too, because his response was that he needed to clean the basement and the spare room. I had scheduled an ultrasound for the 17th and unfortunately, Chris was unable to take off of work. He has been catching up at work after our vacation, BUT he was able to take our FIRST belly pic!!

Chris and I decided to wait to tell everyone until my parents arrive on August 31st. Mostly, I want to be able to tell them in person, but at each step of the way, I feel nervous that this is the end. I was afraid that I wasn’t actually pregnant, then that there was something wrong with the baby at the ultrasound. BUT if your reading this, it means my parents are here and we are sharing:)

 

 

Baby,

I am so excited to meet you! I was not expecting you right now, because you surprised me, but we are so ready to have you here! I have been dreaming about and loving you for so long that I am excited and scared. I just found out about you and I already worry that you are ok, that you are growing well, that I am giving you a good place to live, etc. I worry that something will go wrong, but I am doing my best to stay hopeful.

You haven’t given me any morning sickness so far and so far, I just feel bloated and a few other symptoms I know you won’t want to know. Your dad is a little scared right now, even though he wont admit it, but he is a great person and I cant wait for you to get to know him the way I know him. I know he will do his very best to provide for you and support me with being your mom. I love you baby.

Mom