“Through the years
We all will be together,
If the Fates allow
Hang a shining star upon the highest bough.
And have yourself A merry little Christmas now.”
Author: kimhall618
Vaccination Frustrations
After getting all the testing done, I discovered that I do not have an immunity to Rubella. In order to go through a fertility cycle, I either needed to sign a vaccine waiver or get the MMR vaccine again. I opted to get the vaccination again and made an appointment with my primary care doctor.
After waiting 3 weeks for an appointment, the person I was scheduled with was very rude because of my fertility concerns. I explained why I was there and since I mentioned that we were trying to get pregnant, he wouldn’t give it to me. Despite me explaining the reasoning behind it and that we would be waiting to go through a cycle until the safety period has passed, a requirement with the fertility clinic, he kept coming up with new things he needed before giving it to me. I ended up having two separate faxes sent from the clinic to this man, among other releases and tests from him. I was there for over two hours before finally getting the vaccination I needed.
People without fertility concerns have no idea how much negative treatment people get when trying to get pregnant. If I would have gone in and just stated I wanted to get the MMR again for extra protection, he would have just given me a urine test and called it a day. However, since he knew I was working with a fertility clinic, he kept creating more and more reasons why he didn’t want to let me get it. One excuse was that I needed the flu shot and couldn’t get two vaccinations in the same day, so Id have to come back for the MMR. I refused the flu vaccine and stated that if that were his policy, I wanted the MMR. He argued with me throughout the multiple hour process and kept accusing me of putting a future child in danger. I am glad it is done now, but I wanted to share some insight into the life of those with fertility problems and how experiences like this can all combine together to create emotional trauma. We get treated so poorly and have assumptions made about us, have people feel bad for us, make negative comments about what we are going through and worse. I hope one day this will all be worth it.
Deck the Halls
Christmas 2016
Homemade ornaments of the dog and cat paw prints. Our poor kitty has bone thickening in her feet and tail, so her print looks a little….unique
A few of the presents I wrapped this year. Cute time!!
The few outside decorations we did this year
Our gingerbread Christmas tree
Happy Birthday and wedding tattoos!
I have been behind on the posts, but the 16th was my 27th birthday! Chris surprised me with roses and a wrapped present, which is a big deal because he cant wrap worth a darn. 😉
I took the day off and got a manicure, pedicure, got fun stuff at Michaels and received flowers from my mom and dad. When Chris got home from work, we did something fun;););)
WE GOT WEDDING BAND TATTOOS!!!
I put videos on my Instagram if you want to pop over and take a look!
https://www.instagram.com/kimmyinjapan/
Maybe Baby
Along with any journey to attempt to have a baby, there are waves of emotions. Unfortunately, I am one of the 20 percent of people that struggle with infertility. What only a few people know is that my first husband and I had tried to have a child for 2 years and went through fertility testing before he left and because of that, Chris and I underwent fertility testing shortly before we were married. We planned to start trying shortly after being married and the testing concluded that we needed to first try stimulated ovulation. While we have not started this yet, there are already emotions starting for me, because of the long path I have traveled and Chris and I have just began to travel together.
Oh Christmas Tree
That’s right! We went to the tree farm this past weekend for the first time as husband and wife to pick out our Christmas tree. I wanted a small tree this year and after walking around and playing with the dog, we found the perfect one. Chris is the Grinch, so it was awesome to see him having fun and participating in finding the tree together.
After Chris brought the tree inside, I was able to convince him to help me decorate it. (with hats. hehe). We are starting to build up some ornaments from our relationship and now we have an ornament from the past three Christmases we spent together (the first year he helped my roommate and I get a tree, but my roommate and I were the ones who decorated it and I didn’t get us an ornament). I don’t have our married ornament in yet, but I cant wait to put it on the tree.
On a random note, I surprised Chris with a tactical Christmas stocking that has goodies in it. He told me he was going to peek, but I hope not:(. That man is the most stubborn person I have ever met though, so I don’t think I could stop him if he set his heart on it. I can’t wait until we have a real house with a mantle that we can put our stockings on. In the meantime, the tv stand will have to do, since I get into the bar way too often to have them handing over the doors. 🙂
MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!
Happy Birthday
Chris turned 39 a few days ago and he insisted that we not do anything special. I love doing special stuff and offered to make him a cake, special meal, or even to bring something to work, but he wouldn’t let me. I’m not sure if this makes me a good or bad wife, but I had to do SOMETHING, so I still got him a little present and brought home pizza and candles. He played along, but made sure to fake cry when reading the card I wrote for a reminder that I am a birthday nerd and he’s a crazy old man.
From This Moment On
Literally every. single. picture.
Rehearsal
Getting Ready
Ceremony and Right After
Family Pictures
Reception
random lovey
shout out to the man who will bring me water in bed because I ask him to, with flavor added, in a bride cup, then goes back to get the straw I didn’t ask for because he knows I like it that way. that is all.
I have found the one who my soul loves
We were going to bed yesterday and I always take a while to fall asleep, because things pass through my head. As I was falling asleep, this verse popped into my head and I feel so lucky to truly understand how this feels. Chris and I have both been through some serious relationship heartbreak and were confident in the fact that we would never be married again. Chris did not want to even be in an official relationship at first, but we found the one that our soul loves. The reason we work well together is because we love each other in the crappy times and take the time to listen, understand and appreciate our differences and similarities. As Chris called it when we first met, we all have a heart bubble and our “heart bubbles match each other”. (his words, not mine. I can’t come up with words as cute as he can”.
I think the reason so many relationships fail is because we love the person or the person says they love us, but the inner most part of yourself, which is pure and imperfect at the same time, is forgotten. I pray that I always am able to see past the person and always see into the soul that I love. That soul will stay the same no matter what happens to the person, whether it be time, financial hardship, stress, grief or anything else that life gives to us. Our heart bubbles really do match and that is a truly special thing to experience.
our miller life 